Saturday, February 6, 2010
The Goal or The finish Line?
Ever Since I got to SC, I have been on this never ending quest to better myself and my life. It's been a year and a half now. It feels like I have been here longer then that. However, what seemed like the worst decision I could ever make in my life. Turned out to be the best one. In this time I have worked really hard to get to a better place. I have done so, However I am so tired. I am wondering if im trying to do too much? Is there a finish line? Is there a Goal? What is the objective that I wish to obtain? I realized I just kept going , but never really stopped to ask myself these questions. Now for the results. I am Now a GM and a Serve Safe Proctor. Two things I can take anywhere with me. I am on the verge of finishing my third and and final entry to a trilogy that I have been writing for 9 years now. I have mended my relationship with my parents, and finally mended my long fued with my stepmother. I have sucessfully been able to jugle, all of this and my marriage. I guess,as I am writing this I can see why I am so tired. However I want more...Is that greedy or selfish? Or is that what I should be feeling? Is there enough satisfaction at the finish line? Or should i be setting the golden goal? Guess only time and my efforts from here on out will anwser all these questions. However, out of everything I have just mentioned...there is one important question I never stopped to ask myself that would make everyhting I have said so far mean nothing if I anwser it the wrong way...Am I happy? Well, the anwser is simple, I am content. Which as we know is not the same. They say that you shopuld never settle on anything less then happines...what's wrong with settling with content? Its better then being completley un-happy. What if not everybody is supposed to settle for ultimate happiness, maybe being content, is what brings you the happiness that you seek and desire. Maybe I just anwserd my own question. :) Guess The Goal and the finish line are the same. Its all about what makes you happy and content, or in my case...Both
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Try setting mini goals for yourself. Afterall, if you have one massive goal. "THE" goal. What happens when you achieve it? You will be proud of yourself of course, but what happens then? If you set small, managable goals for yourself then you will always be working on something important without overextending yourself and then you won't get that "What now?" sense.
ReplyDeleteYou have done so well for yourself and I am so unbelievably proud of you and proud to know you. You will figure it out. I'm sure of it. It just takes time. It always takes time when you're in a change and transition period of life, but you will get there and so long as you stay on this right track I know everything will work out for you :)